Women's Art Movement and more...

Just a shout out to Mel, she posted a portion of the interview she had with me on her blog. She's in the process of writing the Votre Vray Creative Women Project and I'm one of the women she has written about. You can read it here: http://www.votrevray.blogspot.com/

I'm just taking a moment to write my thoughts this morning. It's Saturday but it feels like any other day to me since I work for myself now. Corey is away having some much needed guy R&R with a guy friend - Mazda Raceway Laguna Seca motorcycle races. Although I myself don't find it entertaining I can understand his need for it as he can understand my need for "artist" retreats. So I'm home taking care of the 'kids', we consider our dog a child too since she is so needy with all her health issues. Anyway I feel a little more caught up than I have felt lately. Freelance jobs are completed (for now), the plants are watered, and the kitchen is clean. Yes there is so much more to clean, there is always something to clean but at least the perpetual dirty kitchen seems controlled for the moment.

In this pause for reflection, this sigh of relief for having seen progress in the daily duties I find myself recognizing my own needs. Yes they have been there in the back of my mind saying, "Feed me." but I ignore them. I'm paying attention because I've been feeling run down lately. My spirit is sick and making my body pay. I'm recognizing I need to be gentle with my body and mind. I need some replenishment with women friends, some relating. I know if I reach out I will find someone willing I just need to take the first step. Sometimes I wish a friend would just call up and say, "Hey lets have lunch today or tomorrow." But then I know it's not up to my friends to read my mind. I get into the misconception that if they never call you to go do something they must not value your friendship that much. WRONG! Get out of your head and your pity party. They, just as much as you, often just get caught up with daily life plus they do have other friends you know. Ha funny I just realized I often start to feel lonely when I have time to think alone. I like alone time but not too much obviously :) Till we blog again!

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