Collecting...
I'm collecting my thoughts, my dreams, my goals, my vision. I came to my office computer to work but find my mind going inward. When you spend all day taking care of things, little ones, and pets you forget to take care of yourself and I mean more than taking a shower or eating I mean taking care of your spirit. I just realized I don't share this part of myself much anymore with anyone, not even myself and it's made me a little sad. When I was younger I gave of myself completely to others, did for them and shared me with them. Now I realize I'm only giving half because I'm not listening to who I am which means I'm not giving my whole self. I need to share me with me and me with others more. That being said I will make it a point to explore myself here in the written word, the conscience stream of thought at the very least twice a week.
Goals, yes I have many, even the here and now ones seem to outnumber my hours in a day. Priority one will always be my family and caring for their needs, priority two is caring for them financially. This is where I struggle, priority three. Is it my art which if tended to will make money thus helping with priority two or is it the business Corey and I want to open together which is going to help with priority one and two. Then the last on the priority is myself, all too often I hear this is a side effect of being a Mom. Lately I have been putting the business before my art but I feel I need to have some balance. God! Where is balance when I really know I've taken on too much, a problem I've always had. So what's my next move? I can't abandon anything or at least I'm not willing to at this point. As time-sucking as it seems I really need to make myself a priorities time line and then add everyday crap like cleaning out the garage, cleaning the house, finishing the stairs to it and see where I'm at. Then break down the bigger goals into something I can do by the week. Breaking it down by the day is way too anal for me, yes I am a Virgo rising but it has not taken over every part of me because I'm still very much the Aquarian with my "can't fence me in" attitude.
Ahhhh well, my tropical rum drink and a few paragraphs of reflection have done me good. It feels good to take care of myself. Now I can do for someone else and get this illustration started, maybe even completed. Love and blessings.
Goals, yes I have many, even the here and now ones seem to outnumber my hours in a day. Priority one will always be my family and caring for their needs, priority two is caring for them financially. This is where I struggle, priority three. Is it my art which if tended to will make money thus helping with priority two or is it the business Corey and I want to open together which is going to help with priority one and two. Then the last on the priority is myself, all too often I hear this is a side effect of being a Mom. Lately I have been putting the business before my art but I feel I need to have some balance. God! Where is balance when I really know I've taken on too much, a problem I've always had. So what's my next move? I can't abandon anything or at least I'm not willing to at this point. As time-sucking as it seems I really need to make myself a priorities time line and then add everyday crap like cleaning out the garage, cleaning the house, finishing the stairs to it and see where I'm at. Then break down the bigger goals into something I can do by the week. Breaking it down by the day is way too anal for me, yes I am a Virgo rising but it has not taken over every part of me because I'm still very much the Aquarian with my "can't fence me in" attitude.
Ahhhh well, my tropical rum drink and a few paragraphs of reflection have done me good. It feels good to take care of myself. Now I can do for someone else and get this illustration started, maybe even completed. Love and blessings.
Comments